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Be Patient – We are fighting a mental illness so we might not be happy and upbeat all of the time. Sometimes we just need some extra love. You can’t get mad at us for freaking out over little things. We honestly cannot help it.

Reply Fast – We tend to overthink, you not replying decently can put ideas in our head and cause us to panic.

Make Time For Us -We need to constantly know that you want us in your life.

Put Us First – Honestly this is the best tip. When someone puts me first I feel so much better.

Don’t Take Things The Wrong Way – Sometimes when I’m having an anxiety attack, I do not want to be touched or comforted. I just want to be left alone so I can relax. Don’t take this the wrong way. Sometimes you will help, and sometimes you won’t.

Dating someone with anxiety takes a lot more effort than you think. I swear that it is worth it. You just have to remember sometimes we let anxiety control us and we might take it out on you, but we wouldn’t ever want to lose you. Battling anxiety is hard but having someone by your side while we get better is the best thing.

2:09 a.m.

when you’re staring at your screen and you’re speechless because that text changed everything, and you want to cry and cry and scream and tear your heart apart just so it will stop hurting, stop for a moment. realize that this pain will go away, realize that what you just lost will never come back but that doesn’t mean something better wont come your way. grab something you love, your guitar, your piano, your pen and paper, get those raging emotions and pour them out into something, don’t hold it inside you where they can hurt you. distract your mind from everything, don’t re read messages or look at old pictures. delete everything fucking thing, that reminds you of the pain. don’t let this person destroy you, don’t give people that sort of power, because if you do they will tear you down so they can build themselves up. so don’t let them win, do not.

8:46 p.m.

when he kisses you and you no longer feel what you felt before. do not feel upset, do not feel bad. when you now kiss him with your eyes open and when your i love you takes force, do not stay with him. yes, you will hurt him so much, but you cant stay with someone that no longer makes you happy. you will feel like a shitty person for getting tired of other people so quickly but who comes first my dear? you. you always have to put yourself first. don’t stay with someone just because you fear that when you leave you will destroy them as a person. everyone gets hurt, they knew getting with you was going to be difficult but they did it anyways. so they are willing to take the pain because of what you let them experience. you let them experience you. so don’t feel bad for this. for being with them wasn’t all a lost cause.

4:32 p.m.

when all you want to do is sleep and never wake up, force yourself to go and take a long shower. make sure the water is loud enough so that no one can hear you. once the hot water starts running down your back, cry. cry so much that you will not have a single tear in you. do not think. don’t remember how he ran his fingers down your spine and told you he loved you. he is gone now. there is nothing you can do to bring him back. don’t, just don’t remember how he tasted like cherry coke and sweet vanilla with a tint of smoke. forget that he ever looked at you like you hung up the stars. yes you meant something to him, at one point he would of left the world behind for you, but accept that he no longer does. he outgrew you and thats okay. you were bound to outgrow him too.

11:23 p.m.

when you’re at some party and a nice looking guy comes up to you and asks for a dance, you go for it. do not look at him and remember the past. he is the new, stop searching for that boy you lost a long time ago in strangers that are more than kind. when he comes in for a kiss do not pull away. you’re young, kiss and enjoy. when you go around and start kissing strangers and you pretend its that boy that broke you, stop. you cannot hurt yourself like that because when you open your eyes it will really hit you that you lost him. you will be crying at the moon for something that doesn’t even cross his mind anymore. my darling please do not bring yourself pain.

1:38 a.m.

when you wake up and your heart is beating out of your chest and you cant breathe. hold on to something, tell yourself that this will pass. name things you can see and breathe, name things that make you happy and breathe, name your friends and why they’re your favorite. breathe baby just breathe. realize you are still here and you are okay. when you finally stop shaking, go on youtube, look at some cute video of a baby hearing his mom for the first time or watch your favorite you tuber talk about how their viewers make their life. get your favorite food and lay down, do not check your phone for messages. just let yourself get calm and in the right mindset. i promise you’ll be better after a bit. when you can no longer hear your heartbeat, put on your favorite song and play it on repeat until you fall asleep.

-(cause these things have happened before and i did not know how to react.) p.j.

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